21 January 2006

they were right

so, as you grow up in life you realize lots of times that you thought you knew what you were talking about. but you didn't. you were wrong. or you didn't believe your teacher,parent,counselor. you thought you were right. you weren't. you were wrong. you didn't need help because you could do it by yourself. but you couldn't. you were wrong. they were right.

today i was driving and was OBVIOUSLY running about 5 minutes late. because who would be on time, when you can constantly be 5 minutes late to EVERYTHING in life. and as if it wasn't enough to simply be driving to work 5 minutes late after the whirlwind tornado of trying to shower and eat and dry hair and put on mascara and find clean socks at once, i also attempted to listen to two or three days of messages left on my cell phone. all from my complete lack of responsibility. i didn't charge my phone, and then i couldn't find the charger, then i found it but was too lazy to plug it in.... so there i am drving, out of breath, LATE, and listening to messages. and i had three messages, two of which i listened to without much mind, they were just the typical "hey, were here, are you on your way?" y'know those kind.
the third message was from a dear friend asking me to take on...to do something incredibly difficult. i was frozen, it was as if my mind had been going a million miles a minute and then all of a sudden i couldn't think. couldn't breathe. couldn't move. couldn't listen.

sometimes as you grow up in life
you realize lots of times that you thought you knew what you were talking about. but you didn't. you were wrong. i, cannot drive a car and talk on my cell phone. they were right. the parents, the politicians, the angry person with the anti-cell phone bumper sticker on their car. they were right.

there was no accident, there was nothing...i was in an empty parking lot. however, i thought i could, and i can't because i have no idea what the person on the other end might be getting ready to say to me.


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