13 June 2005


when a song speaks to me...i could listen to it over and over and over for a week. it's not that i listen to it until i don't like it anymore or don't want to hear it anymore, it's just some collision in my life with where i am and what that song is and feels like and the emotion that it pulls out. sometimes it's simply the music and the way it rises and falls.
this makes sean crazy. he doesn't understand how i could sit and listen to the same song over and over again. once a cd has played once through, he needs to move on. put something new on. i'm sure this says a lot about who i am and who he is, but that's not really what i'm getting at. i don't know what i'm getting at... sometimes i just need the repetition in my life, or maybe the comfort of knowing where the music is going? no...i dont' think that's it....it helps me think, work things out in my head. at times i get so worked up in my head that nothing can come out. i think it helps me process. helps me to put things in order, get things out, let things go.

the song currently playing over and over: FAIR by REMY ZERO


rise up said...

I am the same, well sometimes-with the songs. Good luck at school in the fall, and just let go of your concerns for now, it will work out fine in the end. Tell Kenna 'hi'

Annie said...

i miss you. you should write soon. :) much love sister, i think of you often!

Annie said...

Julie Christine Oldroyd I miss you

joldroyd said...

hey annie! okay i'm sorry i haven't been writing. but i will soon. an update on being in huntington beach. love you sis.

KingAssmar said...

I suppose I don't really belong here, but I have no other way of contacting you, since I'm retarded and all. Anyway, my old email doesn't work, now it's joperez@kern.org (my work). So as to not be off topic, you really need to hear the new beatsteaks album to understand how a single song "Ain't Complainin'" doesn't get old.